VooDoo.

"I'll do it..." he threatened, "I swear I will."

"Do what Kyle?" I asked.

"I'm going to voodoo her ass! Do unmentionable things to her."

"Kyle, what exactly does that entail?" I asked.

"You'll see..."

Boy, did I.

I'll do it tomorrow...

I have become, or should I say "I AM" (not referencing God, just caps), the bad catholic that comes to confession on a daily basis to confess the same "little" sin. 

I need to start to change today, because tomorrow will NEVER come.

And I will never say enough "hail marys" or "our fathers" to make something happen. They are just meaningless words. Change is what makes the difference. A 180 degree turn. 

What I want.

I want the blood running through my veins, not to be a preservative, but to be a violent powerful force beneath my skin.

I'm nowhere and you're everything...

Lately I haven't been able to write anything. I have a book, an entire book, of ideas. Every time I sit down to write one of these things from the book, I just realize I am not equipped to write them. I am not saying I suck at writing, but everything I try to write speaks of something I know nothing about.

 Usually when I write, I write about someone else's experience, but I have still experienced something similar, something I can familiarize myself with. I think many writers are totally capable of writing about things they have never experienced, but for some reason, I can't. 

I was listening to a song by Chris Thile, called "I'm nowhere and you're everything." Chris has one line that juts out at me when I listen to this song, "I tried to write this song before but had no one to write it for." This line reminds me of the feeling I have when an idea doesn't click. It's like all of these ideas are just premature, no lungs to breathe, haven't developed fully. Once it has time to mature more, inside of me, eventually it's time will come... and it will scream.

I do miss writing though. The pages of my journal beg for me to wet them with ink...

Hopefully all of ideas will mature soon, but until then, I will be patient.

Maybe spend the time learning how to write, ha ha.